Wednesday, December 19, 2007

After 2 weeks

Man its been 2 weeks since i have joined my company.I was just wondering that i am the only person that lives in isolation.But nooo!!.There are these guys who catch the bus everyday from the same bus stop,get into the same bus but still don't even know each others names.I don't like this. We as humans call our selves a social animal but its worse. Man i am trying to make friends now but i have been finding it difficult to execute my plans.Like always i am caught in between the two.
The same Me vs Myself thing.One side of me wants to talk & the other side is pretty reluctant.Mind you these are girls that i want to talk too.Sometimes people can be so unpredictable.I am telling this from past experiences.So this dilemma.Man!!! can't i just be bold enough to introduce myself to them.I am acting like a girl. That has always been the damn problem.Today was crap as usual. When i was all ready mentally 7 ready to execute.Bang!!!the girl disappears.In the evening its still bad.Again because there is no one to talk to.Again there is a girl but again the same shitty dilemma.Somethings things are not in my hands.But all i want is to get rid of all my abnormal behaviors & try to make things right.God has given me this chance & i want to take it with both my hands.I am not just talking about the girls but most importantly my JOB.I don't want to lose this time but i want to win.Its been two & half years.Been through a hell a lot of bad times.I know i will win this time because she is with me & she will not let me lose this time..Let me see what happens tomorrow.I will leave the rest on God.I will just try to do my best.

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