Great Expectations

Its 1:00 in the night when i am writing this.had a very terrible week.I am all screwed up.Sure i did think I screwed up the interview that day.We were eager to be selected. I thought it was supposed to be a peoplesoft project.Then i don't know how in the world did i get selected for the that requirement. Even when was i was being told ,that i had got selected & i would be working on some oracle based tool,i had no clue as to what was coming my way.I never realized that i would be working on UPK.After working so hard ,breaking my back & then i get this.I don't know whether it is for my good or bad.But just to find comfort,i think of what Debalina said .She said that even she had started her career with upk & then later she moved to JD Edwards.I hope something similar happens in my case.I have worked very hard for this, unlike my friends at NIIT who did nothing but Ctrl C my project.I was the happiest man on earth when i was told a month back that i would be working on peoplesoft & just see what has happened now.I am just a human & no matter how much i try to explain to myself,to comfort myself,to say that everything will be alright,still its just very difficult to control my emotions.Today i just felt like crying while going,in the canteen,at work , while coming back& even as i write now.i don't know how much more can i take?.Every time when i think, that things are going to be alright,something happens.All i know is i have worked very hard & I always believe that GOD always has something better for me & she will never let me lose.I have lost twice but this time i will win.This i say because i believe in her& I have faith in her. I am not strong by myself but it is she who gives me the strength to achieve anything & I win because of her,because she is with me everytime looking after me & protecting me.I know i will win this time because i have her blessings.

I had also felt very bad when my PM was discussing about me with his friend & had said something ,which hurt me very bad.Also i kept on missing the bus for the first 3 days to Thane.

And what's with this Debalina??Inside the training room she was all very warm but the moment we stepped out she became very ice cold.may be the second day she felt offended or something when i said that ass thing to her.On asking she did say everything was cool but i felt that she did get offended.But she was a very interesting person to talk to.Really very interesting!!.Her name sounds very interesting too.But i dont know why she didnt pickup when i called her & even didnt reply to my emails..She must be pissed off or something.These girls.huh!!.I just don't know what to say.But i will win them too this time.I know it.I have been successful in this thing ,this time

I hope everything will turn out just fine & i will get into the technical field pretty soon after this project.Just like Debalina said i should remove the negativity & look at the positive side of things.I will work hard.I know i will win this time because she is with me & she will never let her son lose.

Shock from my friend & understanding girls

Hey its been a month since i have joined my new company.I have now a few friends(2 who r freshers like me & are with me all the time) just yesterday we cut the cake for celebrating new year. Then later Garimella showed us the snaps that he took. Man i was shocked i knew he was eying some aunty but he also took snaps of some other aunty & which i never expected from him.i was like going crazy with my friend's sudden attraction to some girls. i was laughing like crazy all the day & even today.Varun was neutral.He must be thinking this garimella has gone crazy due to overeating.Maybe lots of fat has got deposited in his brain & he must be seeing things like Jack Black in Shallow Hal.But leaving the crazy stuff aside , I think we are having fun & i specially like Yajuvendra.Its fun talking to that guy.

Ok now coming to the other part.After a lot of disaster in the past while dealing with girls, I have started to get some success. But seriously i am screwing things up. First i didn't wish this girl at my work place 'A Happy New Year'.I believe she has got pissed off(she should be!!). And then there is this girl in the bus.I just lose my mind when i see her.I know that i don't lose my mind over all the girls except for some.This is the 4th one. But i really don't understand these signals that they give. they put me in some serious DILEMMA I really wish i had powers Like the guy from 'HEROES" series where i can hear people's thoughts.I believe i should have talked to her a long time back & now i am a bit late.Its always never easy you see. A girl always comes in your bus.For one month you act as you are invisible & then suddenly thinking of talking to her is never a good idea. And i seriously am no able to understand what they are trying to say by their behavior.I wish i could understand these girls better.So that it becomes easy for me to communicate.

After 2 weeks

Man its been 2 weeks since i have joined my company.I was just wondering that i am the only person that lives in isolation.But nooo!!.There are these guys who catch the bus everyday from the same bus stop,get into the same bus but still don't even know each others names.I don't like this. We as humans call our selves a social animal but its worse. Man i am trying to make friends now but i have been finding it difficult to execute my plans.Like always i am caught in between the two.
The same Me vs Myself thing.One side of me wants to talk & the other side is pretty reluctant.Mind you these are girls that i want to talk too.Sometimes people can be so unpredictable.I am telling this from past experiences.So this dilemma.Man!!! can't i just be bold enough to introduce myself to them.I am acting like a girl. That has always been the damn problem.Today was crap as usual. When i was all ready mentally 7 ready to execute.Bang!!!the girl disappears.In the evening its still bad.Again because there is no one to talk to.Again there is a girl but again the same shitty dilemma.Somethings things are not in my hands.But all i want is to get rid of all my abnormal behaviors & try to make things right.God has given me this chance & i want to take it with both my hands.I am not just talking about the girls but most importantly my JOB.I don't want to lose this time but i want to win.Its been two & half years.Been through a hell a lot of bad times.I know i will win this time because she is with me & she will not let me lose this time..Let me see what happens tomorrow.I will leave the rest on God.I will just try to do my best.

My First Blog

This is the first time i am writing a blog.Though i have always liked to write one, may be today was the destined day. I don't know what to say. Have just joined my dream company.There were things that i always wanted to do but never got to do them.May be now is my chance.Its been 15 days now. I am getting bored.
Man!!! i got to travel for 4 hrs per day. Now that is insane!!!.And the worst part is there are no friends with me during the journey.I am getting bored to death.That too the considering the kind of psycho i am, i always end up in dilemma.But life has come a long way.two & half years back life had come to a downfall. I never thought i will get this chance & Thank Lord for giving this chance to me.One more thing thats most important. Damn it!!!No girls in my batch.Man!! i was hoping for something better.What crap!!!.But anyway, I hope things get better as we move along.And i hope that tomorrow i will be able to execute what i had planned today.