Great Expectations

Its 1:00 in the night when i am writing this.had a very terrible week.I am all screwed up.Sure i did think I screwed up the interview that day.We were eager to be selected. I thought it was supposed to be a peoplesoft project.Then i don't know how in the world did i get selected for the that requirement. Even when was i was being told ,that i had got selected & i would be working on some oracle based tool,i had no clue as to what was coming my way.I never realized that i would be working on UPK.After working so hard ,breaking my back & then i get this.I don't know whether it is for my good or bad.But just to find comfort,i think of what Debalina said .She said that even she had started her career with upk & then later she moved to JD Edwards.I hope something similar happens in my case.I have worked very hard for this, unlike my friends at NIIT who did nothing but Ctrl C my project.I was the happiest man on earth when i was told a month back that i would be working on peoplesoft & just see what has happened now.I am just a human & no matter how much i try to explain to myself,to comfort myself,to say that everything will be alright,still its just very difficult to control my emotions.Today i just felt like crying while going,in the canteen,at work , while coming back& even as i write now.i don't know how much more can i take?.Every time when i think, that things are going to be alright,something happens.All i know is i have worked very hard & I always believe that GOD always has something better for me & she will never let me lose.I have lost twice but this time i will win.This i say because i believe in her& I have faith in her. I am not strong by myself but it is she who gives me the strength to achieve anything & I win because of her,because she is with me everytime looking after me & protecting me.I know i will win this time because i have her blessings.

I had also felt very bad when my PM was discussing about me with his friend & had said something ,which hurt me very bad.Also i kept on missing the bus for the first 3 days to Thane.

And what's with this Debalina??Inside the training room she was all very warm but the moment we stepped out she became very ice cold.may be the second day she felt offended or something when i said that ass thing to her.On asking she did say everything was cool but i felt that she did get offended.But she was a very interesting person to talk to.Really very interesting!!.Her name sounds very interesting too.But i dont know why she didnt pickup when i called her & even didnt reply to my emails..She must be pissed off or something.These girls.huh!!.I just don't know what to say.But i will win them too this time.I know it.I have been successful in this thing ,this time

I hope everything will turn out just fine & i will get into the technical field pretty soon after this project.Just like Debalina said i should remove the negativity & look at the positive side of things.I will work hard.I know i will win this time because she is with me & she will never let her son lose.

Shock from my friend & understanding girls

Hey its been a month since i have joined my new company.I have now a few friends(2 who r freshers like me & are with me all the time) just yesterday we cut the cake for celebrating new year. Then later Garimella showed us the snaps that he took. Man i was shocked i knew he was eying some aunty but he also took snaps of some other aunty & which i never expected from him.i was like going crazy with my friend's sudden attraction to some girls. i was laughing like crazy all the day & even today.Varun was neutral.He must be thinking this garimella has gone crazy due to overeating.Maybe lots of fat has got deposited in his brain & he must be seeing things like Jack Black in Shallow Hal.But leaving the crazy stuff aside , I think we are having fun & i specially like Yajuvendra.Its fun talking to that guy.

Ok now coming to the other part.After a lot of disaster in the past while dealing with girls, I have started to get some success. But seriously i am screwing things up. First i didn't wish this girl at my work place 'A Happy New Year'.I believe she has got pissed off(she should be!!). And then there is this girl in the bus.I just lose my mind when i see her.I know that i don't lose my mind over all the girls except for some.This is the 4th one. But i really don't understand these signals that they give. they put me in some serious DILEMMA I really wish i had powers Like the guy from 'HEROES" series where i can hear people's thoughts.I believe i should have talked to her a long time back & now i am a bit late.Its always never easy you see. A girl always comes in your bus.For one month you act as you are invisible & then suddenly thinking of talking to her is never a good idea. And i seriously am no able to understand what they are trying to say by their behavior.I wish i could understand these girls better.So that it becomes easy for me to communicate.